LEAVING HOME

CAN’T BELIEVE MY TIME IN PARADISE IS OVER. IT’S KINDA SURREAL THAT I’M ACTUALLY IN AGORA NOW. LEFT EVERYTHING BEHIND. FRIENDS, BELONGINGS, STREETS, U NAME IT. FEELS LIKE A FRESH START. CAN BE WHOEVER I WANNA BE. SPENT THE FIRST COUPLE WEEKS CRASHING AROUND WITH PEOPLE I’D MET DOING GIGS WITH. NAMELY ADEYEMI, BUT ALSO STARFACE. FEELS STRANGE TO SAY THE LEAST. EVERY NIGHT I’M BASICALLY HOMELESS TIL I GET APPROVED AT THIS APARTMENT. NEW CITY TO MEMORIZE, THAT’S ALSO WEIRD TO ME. KNEW EVERY STREET BACK IN LUPOS BUT NOW I’M FAR FROM THAT. I DON’T KNOW SHIT.
STILL TRYNA MAKE THIS FUCKING ALBUM TOO. I HIT A MASSIVE WALL IN MAY, DIDN’T REALLY FEEL INSPIRED TO JOT ANYTHING DOWN ON THIS JOURNAL. DIDN’T REALLY MAKE ANYTHING INSPIRING. BUT AS SOON AS I GOT MY ROOM PACKED, IT WAS LIKE A SWITCH FLIPPED WITHIN ME, FELT SUPER INSPIRED AFTER AND MADE A BUNCH OF NEW MATERIAL. IT FELT GOOD.

I’M GONNA KEEP IT SUPER TRANSPARENT TOO AND JUST LET YOU KNOW I’VE BEEN FEELING SO DEPRESSED. I FEEL EMPTY, LIKE I HAVE NO PURPOSE, LOOKING AT EVERYTHING GOING ON IN THE WORLD JUST HAS ME JADED. IF I DON’T MAKE IT THERE’S NO POINT IN EVEN TRYING TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE. IT’S ALL OR NOTHING FOR ME. HOPEFULLY THIS CITY HAS MY ANSWERS.

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